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In honesty I given up on love holding all the answers. Happiness and Love can only coexist as long as they both remain. Once one is over what happens to a relationship? It ends, to put it bluntly, usually harshly one way or another. Cheating, lying, backstabbing and denail...the world feeds off such things.



At the moment I am happy, just being happy. No other reason to it really...although I am not sure why this happiness exists inside of me I want to cherish it a little while longer without question. While the night is honest and pure to use, the day light rays bright with them the harshness of reality.



I love that about the world....and hate it both the same.



For now I will only focus on the good. As it should be. I might actually be able to pull it off the time, if everything in planning works itself out. I will manage my trip to see him before break is out.

I can not escape this existance, my exsitsnace is a meaningless thing...at least for me now. Why must I work years and be away from him? Is fate really such a merciless thing? Seems so.



The one I want to be with is so far away. It has always been this way...and never should be.



It isn't fair. I want to scream! But then it isn't me anymore just the same. A scream will not come because screaming and fit throwing are not a thing I can just simpley get away with anymore. I have to live and carry on just as he told me to. Until the day...until somehow we finally manage to be together. Perhaps this is a romanticized image. Too misted eyes to ever fully see. But if it is so do not allow me to wake from clouds of mist, for right now I am exactly where I wish to be.



And yet...he ignores me. No...not really. For some small part I suppose that he does, and it can not be helped. Its his own little way. Half a world apart what else can I honestly expect of him. Honestly half the world apart. Seperated by our own place of birth if not anything else our place of living. Hot as fire...he is cold as Ice.

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placidchaos
16:20 Feb 29 2008

I know exactly what you mean.

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